Soooo…..I just feel like writing.
I guess that’s the purpose of this thing (blog)….to get my thoughts out of my head. Lately, I’ve been thinking about my life and about how I am ready for the next chapter. With Mr. Cullen (btw, that’s the baby’s name and yes, he’s a boy) on his way, I have to get my ish together real quick (a little over 3 months left).
My husband asked me if I was depressed today. I am not. But, I am pressed (as they say in the DMV) to make some moves. Shannon calls it soul-searching, the step you need to make just prior to making major moves. It’s not easy but when it’s time to search your soul…you’ll know it…because you can’t think of or do anything else.
Now, there are no instructions on exactly how to search your soul. You just gotta do it. For me, I have to get some tea, get naked (it’s hot in Brooklyn and pregnancy=internal temperature of fire), and sit on a comfy surface in the quiet of my apartment and try to still my thoughts along enough to let some new ones come through. Have a pen and paper near and jot down things/thoughts that I KNOW I’ll forget. (I forget plenty.)
So far, it’s working for me. But, I still feel like I have a lot more searching to do.